Archive | January, 2012

So I know its Real…

16 Jan

I’m gonna do this like ripping off a band-aid…I DROPPED OUT OF LAW SCHOOL. Whooo! What a relief! For those of you who have been following the blog for the past two years have seen me transition from being a full-time budding designer to a law student and have been there for each and every difficult moment of the decision-making process. Law school is on average 6 semesters and 3 semesters in I decided it wasn’t for me. I think part of me has always known it wasn’t for me but at the time I felt like I had no other options. Pursuing the arts as a full-time career is a scary thing… a scary scary scary thing. In January 2010 I knew what I wanted to do and be but I just didn’t know how. Well now I do…You’ve got to step out on faith; that’s it and that’s all.

Let me take you back to my frame of mind when I decided to leave school. It was October 2011 and here I was in my second year of law school. My first semester had gone pretty well but my second semester, when I participated in the Fashion Law Fashion Show, went very bad. I’m talking all Bs in the Fall and Cs and Ds in the Spring. By that summer I was off to Ghana to study law but I ended up buying fabric to work on a new collection. Now its Fall 2011 and I’m riding the high of the Howard Homecoming Fashion Show with an 8 page paper due that I just can’t complete. 8 pages! You do 8 pages in middle school and here I am in law school with a 8 page paper due on a topic of my choice and I can’t do it. That’s the first step to knowing something is not for you; when the most minuscule task seems impossible for you to complete.

While I sat in the library an hour before the paper was due, trying to write something…I just felt like I heard a word; a word from God. This wasn’t a Moses burning bush moment but I believe in my heart of hearts that I heard a voice tell me to get up and go. So that day, October 31st, 2011, I went to the Dean’s office and withdrew from school. It felt amazing; so amazing. I felt relieved. I felt like I could finally be the person I was born to be . I could finally be the person God created me to be. At law school I wasn’t a contributor. I was a taker. I was taking financial aid, taking up a spot, and taking up the time of those who were there to provide me with an education. I believe God gives us gifts so we can contribute to mankind and I was finally ready to use mine.

I decided November 1st, 2011 was going to be the first day of my new life, and it was. From that day I started applying for entry-level fashion jobs in New York. I had my first interview exactly one week later and between November 8th and December 16th I averaged about 2 interviews a week. That’s when I knew this was real. I think back to before I started designing, when I was laid off from my publishing job. Here I was with a degree in journalism, almost 2 years post-graduate professional work experience, and for 9 months not only was I unemployed but I didn’t secure one interview. I wanted to blame to on the economy but I saw the same pattern in law school. After your first year of law school most students participate in OCI (On Campus Interviews). This process is to secure a job for the following summer and works by you putting in a bid to interview with a firm or corporation. Based on your grades, extracurriculars, and whatever else the firm/corporation will decide to interview you or not. I don’t know how many bids I put in, but not once did I get an interview. But in fashion I was getting interviews left and right. Lets be clear, these were all for entry-level jobs and internships but nonetheless I felt wanted. Someone wanted me to contribute.

On December 19th I moved to New York and started work as the unpaid men’s wholesale intern at a major retailer. Some days I feel like I gave up so much for so little; my one bedroom on Capitol Hill for a four bedroom in Harlem with three roommates and the security of law school for an unpaid gig but I don’t believe any of this has been or will be for not. I don’t even see law school as a waste; both fashion shows I did came as a result of me being a law student and my trip to Ghana came through a law school program.

Now as I look for a part time job, to pay the rent, and work to be a shining star at my internship, I know everything will work out fine. Why? Because I am finally becoming the person I was born to become.